Wednesday, 28 November 2007
THINGS'LL GET BETTER
Someday I'm finally gonna let go
I know there's a better way
I know there's a better way
I wanna know what's over that rainbow
I'm gonna get out of here someday.
We live our life continously wondering what's in store for us the next day.
We studied, planned, tried to accomplish whatever goals we have set in our life.
Sometimes it's an easy ride...
More often we scar and fall.
At my age now, I've visited most of the places I once dreamt of travelling.
I've eaten the dishes I wanted to taste.
But it seems like life is still bland.
I refuse to believe that this is just winter blues. Coz even during summer I occasionally feel this. I've got friends who'd listen to whatever grunts I'd share...
But there are words you'd rather not utter. Everybody loves me in my workplace,
But it seems like life is still bland.
I have my family to support me, someone loves me and cares for me
But it seems like life is still bland.
Looking back, I realize that I was happier when I was just @ gradeschool... seeing mycrush everyday, doing things to attract her attention. I was happier when I was just watching cartoons every after school, or playing betamax tapes on weekends.
It was surely more fun to watch my parent's porn collection, nervously playing the tape as any moment somebody would catch me, and the fun of sharing what I have seen to my friends.. During those times I felt I had the advantage as I had seen things before them. Now, I can access anything via the internet, but the thrill is gone.
When I was younger, I was happy to wear clothes/shoes regardless of who made it, now with all modesty, I can purchase the things I fancy anytime, but I'm still not pleased... I desire something new everyday.
Reading the paragraphs above, I kept on typing the word "happier", not "content".. WTF! It only means I wasn't satisfied EVEN during my childhood.
SO WHEN WILL I BE CONTENTED?
I remember when I was 12, I couldn't wait to be 18 coz I said @ that age, I could buy anything and be anywhere...
Now I can purchase anything (aside from the occasional misperception when a seller would look for my ID if I buy an alcohol as she thought I'm still in High School.. ahem!).. Now I wish I'm back to being 15!
Hypothetically, if I am Father God's first creation, I'm sure he'd think otherwise in creating more!
Imagine a planet full of whingers and grumblers!
Now, for no apparent reason, I'm thinking of moving to the US.. even though I'm ok here in the UK. Maybe that's one thing that I'd thought would gratify me... But how about if it's not?
This is worrying me.
AU REVOIR.
