Saturday, 01 December 2007

HEAD'S OUT OF THE CLOUDS

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can't be the only one who's learned!
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

First day of December 2007.


I'm writing this 31 days before 2008.


A few emailed me if I could write something about my work... I'd rather not.

It's fun working there, but it's boring to write (eh?). Although yesterday, if my mind could ___, there'd hardly be any staff left in the building. The moans and groans and grunts and whinges and discontent I got about the Xmas Rota was so sickening (I do the shift rota, and I printed out the Xmas rota last Thurs). I was so drained, tired, sorrowed just by listening to some of them. It was intolerable, and I worked 14 1/2 hours yesterday. I just tried to deviate from it..
I thought of something to console me.. I thought and wished that
I WONT BE LIKE THEM WHEN I GROW OLD.
They're not good examples.
Much as I love them, I hope they'd all think like adults. C'mon guys.. We all know we are expected to work on the forthcoming Holidays.
I DONT THINK I DESERVED THAT.
The timing of it wasn't good as yesterday was the end of month as well (think of the paperworks to be sent to Head Office).. and due to the season, some of my patients weren't well and I have to look after them. Top that up with the moans I heard...
I was so ill last night, that even though I was so tired...

I COULD NOT SLEEP.

Anyway because of that, it made my decision to transfer next year easy. And I now hope no one will complain that I have no time for them...

COZ I SAT AND LISTENED TO EVERY CONCERNS YESTERDAY.

There! On the lighter side... I was watching the news the other day about what happened in Manila Pen. Some of my co-workers asked me about it, much as I would like to explain what it was, I didn't. Even I thought it was complicated, so instead of me boring them with blah blahs..

I just said, it's an ongoing political and social battle.


Anyhow.. last time I asked how come I am not contented (?)...
Wow! For once I was deep. Such a cow, I shouldn't have posted that. I was just low that time and mad with someone... I wasn't careful on what I was typing.
Dont get me wrong though, I am not rich.. hehe.. Luckily, I just survive ok day by day. Reading that post I sounded so ungrateful.

Now, my moans for the weekend are (loz)...
HOW COME I DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT IN MY LIFE?
I know I'm happy, but how come I'm doubting it? Does that mean Im not happy?
Can I be happy though unsatisfied? See.. I told you... Im such a pest eh? hehe...

Do you know yourself and what you want?
GOOD FOR YOU. I actually envy you.


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I'm adding this bit 7 hours after I published the above post.

Just got back from the city centre, traffic was bad, temperature's bad... I only bought 2 items but the queue in Bullring was horrendous. We'll have visitors for the next 2 nyts, & I was asked to buy something from there.

I then decided to go to the German Fair.. I only bought ONE pack of vegetarian sausage and 4 pretzels and it all costed me a flipping £15.00 !(That's like buying 8 hotdogs and 5 pandesals for Php1,400.00!).. In a normal shop it would only cost me not even £5.00... Hmmm.. I think the Germans robbed me.

But I forgot my stupidity after I stuffed my mouth with chocolate covered banana and chocolate covered apple.. Mmmmm.. Yum! Yum! These are the reasons why we still go to that fair.

AU REVOIR.

01 December 2007