KRIS JASPER

This is the first of a series. While A is away, I thought of posting incidents that have, could have or would have happened this weekend in the condescending life of Kris Jasper. I know no one is interested anyway and most people are surely just waiting when I'd overdosed myself... Not this weekend, baby. Not this weekend.

Unfortunately, currently the apartment feels empty. I feel "cold" now that A is not here. I have been clinging to anything that could possibly give me heat, anything that could trigger that fire in me.

Anyway, here I am sitting beside our work's oven, and hoping that any escaped heat will give me warmth. This oven is my current bestfriend. Why not.. she gently prepares my food, she gives me warmth.

And here you could see how sad my eyes are. Those were taken just right after I got back from the gym tonight. There you can see that I am sitting on the floor, gluing myself to our radiator/heater. Again I am hoping that she would be perfectly well all throughout Fall and Winter (never mind about Fall and Winter, but this weekend first) and will secure and protect me from any harm (i.e cold).

Here I am, looking half dead. It's a bonafide photographic description of FORCED EXISTENCE; it's when everyone thinks that everything is OK, but what everyone doesnt know is that you cannot even spell the word OK.



Who needs A when I have my two new bestfriends with me? The OVEN and the HEATER.
Why the fuck most people dont think logically and usually go with their emotions? At least my friends Ms. Oven and Ms. Heater will never (ever) judge me, they already had solemnly attested their allegiance to me. Til death do us part, they told me.




Reading the lines above actually depressed me.

Argh!!! Being alone makes me dolalee (more!)... If only I was told in advance of A's trip to Wales, I could have re-arrange my work schedule and travelled up north to Scotland, or could have crossed the channel and go to France (perhaps).
But did A consider me? NO.
Did A remember that I AM AFRAID TO BE ON MY OWN AS I "MIGHT ACTUALLY" GO TO DEEP SLEEP, TRAGICALLY TELEPORTED BY ALIENS, WAKE UP IN ANOTHER PLANET AND GET ABUSED & TRAUMATIZED BY SMALL, OOMPA LOOMPA BEINGS?
No.


A is EVIL.

A is selfish.

A is bad.

On a lighter note, I have joined a "Boxing class". I dont think I would enter that class again. But it feels great to be on the offensive side, while seeing your opponent pleading for his dear life. ROUND ONE: Opponent- Knocked out.

What did I tell you?

Keep your friends closed, and. your. enemies. closer.

Oh by the way, I have found out that to be called an "arsey" is same as "cheap, crap and shitty".
I'm sure I was called that by someone somewhere... hmmm...... I think I AM being bullied!
Funny how quick an incident could turn 180 degrees.